Journal Entry 50

10.07.2026

The King was not impressed by my decision to travel alone to Rüdersdorf. I explained how important it was for me to visit the basement on my own. Jonas’s concerns are valid. He is worried about a possible negative reaction I might have without someone with me to provide support. The King believes that I will be able to move on from the memories of torture and captivity if I continue with therapy. Jonas also expressed that my trauma could be aggravated by returning to the site of my tragedy.

I declined Jonas’s offer to have one of his security details accompany me to Rüdersdorf. My King has a side to him that not many get to experience. At times, Jonas acts towards me like my big brother or my father. Other times, I feel as though I am babysitting His Royal Highness. Oh, the stories I could share with you, my dearest journal, would have you laughing in tears if you were able. Do not fret, I will share some of those funny moments in due time.

Before leaving the castle, Jonas approached me as I was stepping into my vehicle to go home. He told me to open my hand and then said, “I am not going to lose you again.” The King placed two tracking devices on my palm. He said I was to place one device in my pocket and the other in my luggage. The tone of his voice told me that his directions were not suggestions. The King also checked my mobile to make sure that my location app was turned on before giving me a hug and telling me to be careful.

Sometimes I feel guilty about the worries and attention the King of Dorstenland gives me. Why me? What do I do to deserve Jonas’s care and devotion? Yes, I am his best friend and private secretary, but something in our relationship seems to change by the day.