Journal Entry 25

31.05.2026

As I look out my window, the King’s castle does not look the same. My study does not look the same. Nothing looks or feels the way it used to. Jonas and I have both lost our wives. Our lives have changed forever. Our children’s lives have changed forever. Yet, I cannot stop thinking about the pain he is feeling. For some reason, my mind will not stop focusing on Jonas. Yes. He is the King of Dorstenland. Jonas is the face of our nation, now more than ever.

As I continue my duties as his private secretary, I often think of the times we had growing up together. If only you, my loyal journal, would be able to see the smile on my face as I recall our childhood. But something has changed. I am not sure what it is. There is a feeling in my being that has changed when I look at Jonas, or when he looks at me.

Jonas has changed. My King summons me more than usual. It is as if he needs me by his side now more than ever because the Queen is no longer with him. However, now he looks at me differently in a way that excites me.

Jonas asked me to go with him to his cabin. Just the two of us. He mentioned discussing the future of the monarchy, yet he also added that he planned on going fishing and hunting with me alone, without his security detail. My mind is racing with questions, particularly “why”?